I'm having a depressive episode 

"K-Roll-PorscheTamer" (k-roll390) 01/06/2016 at 00:17 • Filed to: Help

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I just don’t feel positive right now. I feel weak, drained of life and energy, and can’t sleep and have a headache. I could use some positive help, please.

I could use some positive ‘67-68 mustang or gt500kr reinforcement.

Supreme Chancellor and Glorious Leader SaveTheIntegras > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:19

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Haven’t you heard? The mods are apparently asleep! There is joy in that

Bytemite > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:21

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Tell me how you really feel.

No but seriously, what’s wrong?

TheD0k_2many toys 2little time > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:23

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http://www.depressiontoolkit.org/

CB > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:23

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Get some physical exercise and take a shower. Do you have any chores or anything that need to be taken care of? Laundry, dishes, shit like that? Get that done.

Although, it is midnight, so it may be hard to do those.

Anyway, have some GT500KR. Hang in there.

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > Bytemite 01/06/2016 at 00:25

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No one cares how I really feel...I don't know why it took so long for me to realize it. I only have myself

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > CB 01/06/2016 at 00:26

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I've already done that and went on an adventure today with an awesome Oppo visiting.

CB > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:27

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Nice!

Hm. Any way you can try meditating? That sometimes helps me. And Dok just posted a pretty good link.

Caleb "If a rally car can do it, so can my Malibu" M. S. > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:27

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Hey dude I’ve been there, and really just got out of it not too long ago. Go for a drive or walk, clear your head, go on autopilot for a while and let shit happen.

Birddog > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:29

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Here ya go guy..

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > Caleb "If a rally car can do it, so can my Malibu" M. S. 01/06/2016 at 00:29

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It never goes away it won't leave me alone. I want it to go away but it won't let me go away. I can't drive or walk now it's too late and I'm stuck in bed

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > CB 01/06/2016 at 00:30

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I don't know how to meditate I don't think I can do it

CCC (formerly CyclistCarCoexist) > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:30

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Saw your FB post.....I’m sorry about what’s going on....

Here’s archer in a Bullitt stang.

Nibby > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:31

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I know exactly how you feel.

The best thing to do is to tell someone you trust, eg. a parent or sibling or good friend. We’re always happy to help cheer you up.

Also, drink plenty of water. Just water, no soda, alcohol, etc. You’ll be surprised how much that helps with your mood.

G_Body_Man: Sponsored by the number 3 > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:33

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List your biggest problems.

Caleb "If a rally car can do it, so can my Malibu" M. S. > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:33

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Lay flat on your back, legs straight out, arms at your sides, and if you can, clear your mind. Kind of like meditation, but less control. Just let your mind wander. I know that sounds like some hippie shit, but trust me.

Manwich - now Keto-Friendly > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:34

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Here... lemme cheer you up with a Mustang:

Oh wait... it’s getting beat by a smart car. Okay... out about a picture of a nice woman:

Oh wait...well I thought she was nice 5 minutes ago before she started chowing down on little Billy...

How about a nice picture to encourage you to get some exercise to get those stress-relieving endorphins pumping...

CB > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:35

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Usually, I just try to focus on my breathing and imagine I’m someplace else. A nice field, a gentle breeze, that hippy bullshit. It’s hard when you can’t shut off your brain (I know I can’t), but it might be worth trying at somepoint.

I believe in you, man.

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > Nibby 01/06/2016 at 00:36

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No one will understand or help me no one can help what's permanently broken. No friends can help me they've tried and failed. I'm a lost cause

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > CB 01/06/2016 at 00:38

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My imagination is my problem I want it to stop doing what’s doing. My brain is hurting me and whatever I imagine won't happen or be real

TheHondaBro > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:39

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If it helps, I personally care for you in these situations. I know exactly how you’re feeling, and I don’t wish other people to feel the same anguish. It’s just not fair.

CB > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:39

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Anything I can do to help?

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > TheHondaBro 01/06/2016 at 00:41

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Life's not fair and that's how it goes. I just have to deal with it no exceptions

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > CB 01/06/2016 at 00:42

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I want my life to be different I want to be in control of what happens I want my head not to hurt and I want life to be better but I've no control over any of it so I can't even do anything

CB > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:48

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Break down the bigger things into smaller things, and see if something you can solve comes out of it?

Chasaboo > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:50

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In times like these I either hit the gym really hard, or the strip club. Hell, maybe both.

Textured Soy Protein > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:55

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Speaking as someone who’s been there: have you consulted a mental health professional?

I’ve had some very dark times in my life both from external things like extreme mental health problems of assorted family members, plus internal things of my own.

There are ways to talk this stuff out that help, and medication could also help. Not that psych meds are always the answer, but I’m on a couple, and they’ve helped me immensely.

I have a pretty great life now, and I don’t think I would’ve made it here without getting professional help.

I live with my gf of 5 years and our 3 cats, I have some good friends, I make good money, have pretty much whatever material things I want, and good relationships with my family members who aren’t the ones dropping flaming bags of their crazy shit on my emotional doorstep. There are a few who I just can’t have in my life for assorted reasons that aren’t worth mentioning here, and while it’s disappointing, it’s for the best.

Anyway, enough about me, my point is, there’s no shame in deciding you need some help, and then going and getting it.

iSureWilll > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 00:59

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I feel you this one 100% K-Roll. I too have a very wild imagination and a lot of times makes me worry about things that might happen but never do. It’s very stressful at times but I’ve found ways to work through it. Good luck to you. If you ever want to talk privately, shoot me an email. w low 636 at the mail to the G dot com You can do this.

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > CB 01/06/2016 at 01:05

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I keeping breaking down and nothing happens. It's all there and I can't do anything about it

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > Caleb "If a rally car can do it, so can my Malibu" M. S. 01/06/2016 at 01:05

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I can't clear my mind

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > Textured Soy Protein 01/06/2016 at 01:09

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I’ve already got meds and life was good for a week or two, but now it seems like I’m just going back and forth between good and bad. I can't talk about it to anyone because no one understands, not even the people who do know. There's nothing they can do to fix me. I can't have everything I want and it feels like everything is going to hell when it's not. I'm alone when I'm with people and I'm alone when I'm not doing anything and I feel like shit when this happens and I can't stop it.

Bytemite > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 01:09

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Good, you learned. It’s only downhill from here on out. You just need to accept a lower level of happiness as being happy.

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > Bytemite 01/06/2016 at 01:20

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It sounds like being dead is better.

Bytemite > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 01:26

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Well what I’ve been told is that something must have been real good for me to fall so hard. So you appreciate the fact you had a great time before but also realize that kind of joy won’t come again. You instead get used to a lower level of contentment and something that wasn’t a source of happiness before becomes a great source because your equilibrium is now lower. Soooo. Yeah. This is why people drink.

K-Roll-PorscheTamer > Bytemite 01/06/2016 at 01:45

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Downfall

Baeromez > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 01:58

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You’re young, you’ll probably get over it. If the feeling persists, try eating right and exercising (and don’t lie to yourself and others about it, you know if you’re maintaining your body properly [you’d be surprised how often people can’t admit to this]). If that doesn’t work, you need medical help.

Don’t just mope around and be all ‘woe is me,’ you need to be aware of your state of mind and take steps to improve it if need be. This kind of thing can become a serious problem if you ignore it. If all else fails, take some ecstacy or LSD, or something.

Sneaky Pete > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 01:58

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Shit might be really shitty right now, but things can and will get better. Trust me. I’ve been there. There are people that care about you. There will be more people that you’ll meet someday that care about you. You matter. Life is a short and beautiful thing. If you need to talk to someone that’s dealt with similar struggles, I’m here.

Burn-Spaz1966-Burn > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 02:02

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Hmm, well sounds like you need to get out of your head. Any SPCA’s around you? Can you Volunteer anywhere?

Hippie Shit: Imagine a black circle in your head stretching from ear to ear. Anything pops in your mind concentrate on getting the black circle back.

Noah - Now with more boost. > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 02:11

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Hey dude, sorry you’re caught up in this awful state of mind. Things CAN and WILL get better. I know this is my first time commenting on depression post of yours, but it isn’t the first one that I’ve noticed. It seems like melancholy is your status quo, and these stronger episodes hit you hard & unexpectedly. If you’re so depressed that you’d rather be dead than live life this way, you must be in a lot of pain on a regular basis. I wish there was a way to PM you on Kinja because it kills me that I can’t be more honest with you about my experiences. If you want to actually talk about this with me I’m sure we could figure out a way to do that.

Anon > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 02:12

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Well, first let me say that I am drunk while writing this. But, K-Roll I like you. I give you shit sometimes but I think you’re a good person. I’m sorry if I’ve ever hurt you with my jokes. But everyone goes though hard spots. I do, hell last year I was really shitty. I’ll let you in on a secret, I joined oppositelock because I was lonely. I wasn’t even much of a car enthusiast when I joined but look at me now! I still know jackshit about cars, but I feel like I’ve grown as a person. But no matter how hard it seems, remember, you have 70 or so years ahead of you. You need to remember that life can be shit sometime, but other times it will be better than you can possibly imagine! I can’t really think of too much more to say, but I hope you feel better soon.

Anon > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 02:24

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Me again, look whar you need to do is sit down. Make sure both knees are touching the ground. It will be much more effective that way. Now you need to focus on nothing, imagine focusing on an elephant if you need to focus on something. Take in breaths in on a 3 count. 1-2-3 breath 1-2-3 exhale. This is the most important step in my opinion. Steady slow breathing is the key to meditation. Jusf try an relax, you aren’t doing this to find the secret on the universe! You are just doing this to relax. That’s how I learned fron the monks in Japan anyways. I would also look into yoga. Yoga is stress relieving as all hell!

Burn-Spaz1966-Burn > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 02:26

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Noah - Now with more boost. > Noah - Now with more boost. 01/06/2016 at 02:36

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It sounds like you're already seeking professional help, which is awesome. You need to be patient though - brain chemistry is poorly understood and it takes trial and error to figure out the right solution.

promoted by the color red > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 03:15

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Are you still in school? I ask because I went through the same exact thing you’re going through and I’d like to help you avoid this so you don’t have to hit rock bottom like I did.

Go to your school’s health services and talk to somebody. There’s no shame in doing so and it’s better you nip this at the bud. Plus your tuition’s paying for it.

I’d also suggest joining a club, just any club that sparks your interest in something that you’d normally wouldn’t do, whether it’s racketball or martial arts or even Star Trek. You’ll never know if/when you’ll find that something or someone who pushes you back on track.

this is not matt farah's foxbodymiata > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 03:39

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I’ve been living with bipolar disorder my whole life. I’ve been to edge of ending it, seeing no reason to go on, and actually believing that by existing I hurt those that I care about and the world at large.

There are also times when I think know I am invincible.

I can’t fix your shit over the interwebs, and everyone’s mind is different. I do, however, feel I’m at least qualified to make a couple notes.

The thing to always always remember is that when you’re feeling like this, you’re in a cycle in which some little negative thoughts, feelings, events, etc. have triggered a chemical response. Those chemicals take over, and change the way you think and feel. Then, the negative feelings the chemicals cause trigger more of the same reaction. It’s a wonderful clusterfuck of a downward spiral.

It’s like putting a filter over a camera lens, everything has a blue tint to it. In this metaphor, blue is all the bad things in your life, and the red that was filtered out is everything good. Your brain literally ignores and forgets good moments the instant they happen, and latches on to bad ones. It’s a little voice in the back of your head amplifying every little thing into some kind of overwhelming darkness. Those chemicals attack every part of you, even your immune system.

The point is, you cannot blame yourself. You didn’t bring this on yourself, and it’s not your fault if you can’t get out of bed. You’re not lazy, you’re sick. I know you really won’t believe this right now. I’ve lost really good jobs, and almost didn’t graduate, just because I’d go weeks without being leave the house. It’s only in retrospect, when you resurface from beneath all this weight, that you will truly understand this. But it is possible to try to accept and forgive yourself every time you have a negative thought. Even if it feels false, it really helps.

Also, seeking and receiving help is not weakness. Weak men hold every pain inside, dry eyed and locked in, until they burst. Or die. It takes strength to admit you are wrong, or that you can’t do it on your own. And it will make others feel needed, respected, not burdened. I always feel intensely guilty whenever family or friends do even the slightest thing for me, and yet the only thing that can (temporarily) get me out of the deepest hole is the feeling of purpose and warmth of someone I care about needing my help.

Yeah.

That got a little intense. And probably too weird and meandering to make any sense or be helpful.

Lets just say I can strongly relate, and you’re going to be ok, and Oppo is here for you. Try not to blame yourself, and do your best keep eating and sleeping and moving and thinking and hooning. Etc.

Have a Mustang you didn’t ask for because I don’t really have any first gen pictures.

Nibby > K-Roll-PorscheTamer 01/06/2016 at 09:16

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Listening to this song helped me cause it felt like I could relate to it in many ways.

I am speaking from experience... as someone who has been rejected pretty much all the time starting in middle school to undergrad (whether it was racist classmates telling me things like sand nigger, or college filler friends “forgetting” about me, rejection from tons o’ jobs (but I finally got one!) etc.). The worst feeling is not feeling dead or rejected, but being forgotten by those you know, care about, and cherish.

I could write a novel on that stuff. But I won’t.

Do what makes YOU happy, keep yourself busy and know that you’re not the only one who feels like this. It starts with yourself... sit down and write a list of things you’re good at, then write about how you can improve yourself. Strive to improve yourself every day, be the best you can be.

Whenever you need help for anything, the first step is admitting to yourself that you need help. Then you must be willing to accept the advice or steps required to overcome your problem(s).

You’ve probably heard the saying “You can’t help someone if they can’t help themselves.”

You also have some pretty cool cars and a decent lifestyle. There are so many people around your age (more than you think) that would KILL to be in your shoes. Be grateful for what you have.

You’ll be fine... just remember that no matter how long you’ve felt like this, you can get over it. I still sometimes have my low moments and feel similar to you at times briefly but by now I know who to talk to about it and seek help immediately.